I met an Archangel.. and fall in love with him

It was just last year, when i had a terrible situation… being left out by someone I love, and at the same time .. also being left out by friends that connect me to him..I was so lost… dont know what to do.. try to find him everywhere.. everytime.. I cannot think clearly.. in my mind, i was just trying to understand and trying to find him…oh.. my life was so miserable … hurt, terribly sad, cannot work properly…. hm. i couldn’t describe it into words…. but i was on the deep sadness …….. i weep so much that i cannot breath and i screamed silently… it was soo horrible.. i fell that i have no night without crying..

Since i’m a catholic.. i did lots lots and lots of prayers.. ask Jesus to find him.. novena, rosary, church.. every way to find him.. if i should jump , i would do.. because i love him so much..

Then, one day .. in my sleep… i dreamed… that some one.. male.. with shiny curly blond hair… in white long dress.. he was shinning….a very bright light so that you couldn’t even see his face..
at that time, he was just looked at me.. and silent…

Beside him, i saw one child cowered near him.. very sad.. i thought he was crying.. and suddenly he turned .. and walked to the child.. and hugged him from behind…peacefully…

I was awake in the morning but i could not forgot what i have dreamed of ,.. so at the office.. i browse pictures under angel.. but i saw …. lots of porn there 🙂 named angel.. (hm.. that surely not what i saw ) .. then i search under name of archangel… ..after pages and pages.. then one picture made me freeze…… it was shown what ive seen.. in my dream.. short hair, curly.. and peaceful face… and when i looked his name.. it says…RAPHAEL….

at first i dont know much about Raphael. i read his story… . and found out that Raphael is the angel of love, travel and sickness..
on the second time, i froze.. LOVE??? …. that was the situation i was dealing with.. that day….. i lost my love… love made me lost my soul…… then i understand what my dream meant to me…Raphael wanted to say .. that he was there for me.. .. beside me.. comforting me… and always be there..

it took time for me, to release me from my sadness… but i know and believe.. . he will find me LOVE as he did before..

I still pray to him, till now.. oh Raphael,.. i love you…my archangel

Your best friend could be your worse enemy

Just got a note from friend,.. it says ” dont depend too much to your friend, our best friend can let you dont. they can be nowhere when you needed them..but our GOD never let you down.. ..ever..

I don’t always have negative attitude to a new friend, however the experience have proven that what It said above is true…

I used to have a bunch of best friends back then in high school, had a great time…and at that time, seems that friends are everything to me…There was a girl who was “i thought she were” my best friend… i spent lots of time with her…After high school ended, we were studying in the different uni…

one time we were planning to meet each other again , at that time i was still unemployed … and for some reason, I asked her whether the meeting can be settle earlier……..and …. what the “….” instead of saying some nice words.. she said.. I cannot.. easy for you to set anytime, because you are not working, for us.. we go back home at 6. “D***”.. that was hurting me, man….

Again, when i was in Oz..one good friend from the same country would be the one who let me down. Dunno what really happen, i don’t think i ever offended her.. at all.. then she would be the one who tried to crash my farewell party…

when i was in workplace, .. experiences LOTS of people who are nice in front but actually demon behind us…… while i thought that they can be our best friend…

Got also stories from friend of mine… that they also experience the same thing. who has been getting down by their own friend…

Then,.. who should be TRUSTED?? who is a REAL FRIEND?
but, dont worry, i still believe.. that

Does human STILL have a heart nowadays????

The tittle up there is really a question i would ask to you all.. does human still have a heart nowadays??? We heard so many killings, suicide, and more more betrayal, cheat on, and more of their behavior that prove that the answer of that question is BIG NO! Actually, it comes up while i was watching a serial reality show in my country called “Termehek mehek” means crying out loud…the reality show beginning with seeking a missing person.. most of them their lover.. boyfriend/girlfriend that already been missing from up to 3 months.

First the story goes well.. ….most of the missing person usually has a disadvantages which make them cannot see their love anymore, like being disable/blind, got car crashed.. which make them afraid to see “the seaker” anymore… however,.. it extended into lots of things.. uncovered the “Evil things about human”

For example, the episode about a girl looked for her dad & her siblings..separated after the parents divorced…  found out that her dad was a drunk, had lots of debt.. and almost sold her twin to her dad’s friend.. for bottles of beers.. can u imagine how bad is it.. for a dad SELLS his daughter??

The next episode was about a girl who looks for her ex, to say sorry, found out that her ex got married with a wealthy family, but has NO POWER at all as a man,.. he has to do what his wife says.. and very pale.. and cannot say NO to  his wife, in my country the frase is… the man just like a cow with rope on its nose and walk wherever the rope is going….. the question is… WHO IS the head of family.. is the rule changes?…or.. what kind a man, who can live WITHOUT power… or even .. feelings?..

Another story, that a girl was looking for her brother and sister out town, found out that her brother was high..and her sister was pregnant… by her own uncle whose house was stayed by both of them.. Where the MORAL goes??? where the heart goes???

A granddad was gone missing, and found out that the grand dad intentionally being dissapear so his granson cannot look for him just to pay all debt he made in overseas.. hm.. WHO is to blame/??

also looking at reality shows called Orang ketiga.. (the third person) .. it showed that a daughter have suspicion for her mom.. turned out that her mom likes  young guy.. and even ask her staff out for a vacation outtown together.. hm.. used to say that heaven is under mother’s feet.. IS IT REALLY NOW???

beside the television, i used to play Mirc, ICq.. between 1 – 10.000 people i chat, i just chat with about 5  good person.. most of them are bullshitting.. (sorry about my language)… lying.. and psyco.. the question is.. why they do that???? what’s advantage that they have by doing that????

so….. where the heart goes??? or should i say.. perhaps God has forgotten to put heart when he created a new person on this millennium edition ?? People just betray everybody.. their love ones, their family, their colleagues….
or is it near to ARMAGEDDON??

however, the thing  that i could not understand is … how many psyco live in the world..